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"Woman was taken out of man; not out of his head to top him, nor out of his feet to be trampled underfoot; but out of his side to be equal to him, under his arm to be protected, and near his heart to be loved"

10 things i love about you.

1. i love it when you smile, we look alike kan? orang cakap lah, i don't know



2. i love it when you tell me that everything is going to be okay everytime i cry



3. i love it when you keep on approaching me even when i ignore you



4. i love it when you stare at me, and saying that i'm gorgeous



5. i love it when you text me, telling me how much you love and need me



6. i love it to see you sweat after you've done playing football or rugby or anything



7. i love it when you cry in front of others and chase me when we argued



8. i love it when you wave your hand to me everytime you pass by my class



9. i love it when you eyed contacting with me during band ensemble



10. i love it when you send me short notes in the morning everytime before lesson started

i love you Ammar Fiqri

resilient renaissance outing.

yeah, finally, i've found a way out of this-susah-nak-keluar-thingy :D *bangga bangga. alhamdulillah lah, Allah tu maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang kann, dia bagi lah kita budak budak band ni sekor sekor dapat 8A. once again, ALHAMDULILLAH :) thanks to Ammar Fiqri yang telah banyak berdoa untuk kekasih hatinya, 'Ain Farisya, entah sape tah tu, tak kenal. just our luck and jodoh perhaps sebab dapat duduk sebelah sebelah time PMR harituh, tu yang semangat tu, UNTUNGLAHH.

okay, so here is the story. semuanya 9 orang, plan nya semua nak pergi tapi, if only Allah wills it lah kan, eventually not semua orang lah. a lil bit disappointment, sbb tak complete. suppose to be 17 kan altogether, tapi tak mengapa lah, kita jumpa kat sekolah je lah eh yang 17 orang tu. plan semua kumpul kt kl sentral pukul 8, tp some je lah, naabil, adham, teddy, izzuan, gap (ammar kata sekarang nama dia close sbb pakai braces, tahniah!) and me and aizat and my sayang masing masing from hang tuah lrt station, though masing2 sesat at first place :P tp alhamdulillah, sampai jugak.

then, i walked to the times square building as well as the two guys which stated above. ammar sweating bagai nak gila, bising nak bukak kemeja dia tu and bising asking me kenapa pakai kemeja jugak *derrr, suka hati i lah. aizat diam. tak cakap. lapar kot, dia kata makan maggie je pagi tadi. then sampai ts, jumpa adham and teddoy dkat ict centre *perlu ke cerita hah? takpelah, cerita je. then jumpa naabil, gap, izzuan kt mcD kt fifth floor, best jugak jalan berdua kan sayang? hahah, NAK KASUT!

after that, narisha erina sampai, well, princess kan, lambat sikit lah, hihi, jkjk. ayah dia ada meeting lah. so we decided to enter the cosmo world *yeay! though my stomach flattered that time. ammar lah ni, nak sangat roller coaster tu. haha, this part mmg happy moment lah, rasa sayang kat band, hahaha *boo-ing me? i dare you! yg first thing kita semua naik tu, DNA maker kot, ntah apa tah, best lah jugak, bergegar otak, macam nk terkeluar anak tekak jerit, first time kot, dulu pergi tak lepas :P pendek lagi lahh -.- faham lah sikit.

dah habis tu, pergi part disaster ni pulak. omaygeee, rasa nak tercabut nyawa dah -.- kalau tak disebabkan ada buah hati kat sebelah, mmg dah tak tahan lah, tp sbb dia ada, ada lah strength tu jugak untuk continue on. pahal lah dia pusing macam tu oh, buat orang menangis je *eh, siapa yg nangis? nanti lah kita fikir eh.

then we went for bumper cars ride! hahah, game favourite adham, sbb dia asyik muntah je everytime main game pusing2 tu, narisha cool je, tak faham kenapa. i don't even know how to drive a bumper car, asyik stuck je, asyik langgar narisha je. eh sayang, sorry eh, terkeluar lah jari tu, heee sayaaaang you (:

we continued with roller coaster pulekkkk, hahaha, tak takut pun, sbb superman ada kat sebelah. kan awak kan? *bangga lah tuh. naik roller coaster sampai 3 kali, tak biul ke kepala? haha, dah immune sampai tak takut langsung. yang piring pusing2 tu pulak laaaaagi best, rasa macam dalam filem titanic, "u jump i jump" lah angin dia, sepoi sepoi bahasa, kita siap honeymoon kan yaaaaang? (:

and and yang benda gayat tu, haha, sumpah gayat tp tak takut sangat lah (sbb dah biasa duduk third floor) tak lah macam benda pusing pusing yang boleh cabut nyawa orang tu -.- creepy. ohh lupa pulak lagi satu game yang kita main, dizzy itzy kot? macam naik hot air balloon je, siap boleh gossip lagi, and ada orang tu nak sangat tidur. tidur lah youu, i tak nak kejut nanti. eh laaagi satu adventerous game! shu shu train :D heee, paaaling extreme. kitorang just kena tekan tekan horn je, train tu gerak sendiri lah, pandai pandai dia.

then bowling, tak tau nak cakap apa, im not interested at all, main lah korang puas puas, strike lah puas puas. haha, sape tah jadi champion, tak tau lah *ehhh, kenapa macam ada orang perasan? :P sweetheart, you paaling expert kan, boleh lah menang -.- derrrrr, tgk lah, nanti kita lawan okay ;)

perut pun dah lapar, so makan kat kenny rogers. haha, semua pun quarter meal, tak payah nak bnyak cerita lahhh -.- makan sampai bloated, who cares? we're celebrating our glory of being an 8A's students kott, thanks to aunty siti.

and after that, everyone was making their own step to home. so do us kan, sayang? its been a wonderful day to be with you sayang and not to be forgotten, narisha, adham, naabil, gap, izzuan, aizat and teddy, abg syahrul too. well, i just hope that this trip will enhance our family bonding, i love you guys, but sorry, i love my man more (:

nanti pergi lagi okay? haha, macam lah boleh keluar.
picture stores a thousand or even possible, million and trillion of memories. biggest gratitude to all of you. love youuuuuuuu <3

this one special speech for him, alahh, WP034K078, thanks for the money you spent for me, banyak kan? nanti i ganti. im sorry sbb kinda menyusahkan, im sorry if i spoiled the day, im sorry if i ter-over or what, sorry jugak if tergedik sangat. i love you, no doubt, wishing to spend more time with you lagi, takpe, next week sekolah dan kan? kita jumpa nanti okay? thank you honey! i love you and always will.

dying once again.

i have died everyday waiting for you

shits.

im okay today. just fine. a little bit hurt, but its okay.


hey, im glad, i can survive without you. im glad, i don't cry because of you. and im sooooooo happy to know that im a lil bit stronger this time. don't worry, you just don't need me anymore and i'd already know. as i've said earlier, im okay with that. find a better girl, okay. bye.

an advice.

love needs trust

day third.

what about, "lets just smile tonight?"

well, its a normal excitement when we communicate with the one we love. via facebook, for example, it made my night! wow! suprisingly, tonight is my most happy night throughout this week :) wait, i smiled just now! hihi. i just can't stop smiling. okay, gtg. i have something to be done with him <3 goodnight, wish me for a sweet dream :) *well, smiling again

ammar fiqri, thank you for tonight <3

i love you

things to do while alive.

1. get a cuddle from parents, well i just never get one.




2. be a successful lady, with loads wealth.




3. build a house in the deep sea.




4. collect all the apple gadgets *iPhone, iPad, iPod, MacBook.
   



5. be married to the one i love and choose and wish to be with *highschool lover hopefully.




6. sleep all over the day.




7. build a hospital just for the poors and orphans.




8. get a tour to all over the world with the one i love.




9. gossip with girlfriends till anyone can't say a word anymore.




10. eat ice cream with boyfriend while planning some impossible thing to do in future and laugh non-stop.




11. have a sweet sixteen party for my 16th birthday just like in mtv.




12. have a life of deluxe and glamour just like kardashian's family had.




13. struggle to learn on how to swim, dive etc (Y), if possible, get a diving license.




14. own a modelling or arts or photography company.
    



15. chasing in the rain with boyfriend, and have a kiss after that.




16. buy some luxury cars *i pick audi for that
    



17. be the most beautiful wife, a husband can have.

well, just wish that dreams come true.

alya zulkifli.

hello kak alya :)

i miss you so much! the moment we're lying on the bed, and gossip with hanys, syifaa, kak aainaa and kak intan. and also when we watched movie in kak intan's notebook. thank you for caring much all these days. thank you for being a good listener all these while. thank you for every joke that made me carved a smile. thank you for all foods you gave when my stomach starved. thank you for giving us motivation to face pmr. thank you for wiping tears when i don't have anybody to do so. thank you for showing me a good example of being a good sister and also friend. thank you kak alya.

dearest kak alya,

i adore your toughness. i adore your confidence. i love your cute smile. i love your lips. i want your leadership credibility. i want to be as smart as you. i want to be as loyal as you. i wish to be as cute as you. i wish to meet your clone next year. you are irreplaceable. take care, be tough throughout obstacles and everything that'll bother you someday.

i love you, alya zulkifli

missing piece.

this one special guy; ammar <3

mr.eric :)

ain <3

renaissance :)

usaha-ians; luqman and yanie :D

flauttists; meira and yanie <3

<3

naabil, aizat, luqman, atiq

resilient :)

SWO SMSS exchange

narisha <3

renaissance :) nik and narisha <3

resilient babies :)

resilient babies 2.0

clarinettists; nik and farah :)

resilient 2.0

clarinettists 2.0

i miss you The Renaissance :')

day second.

alone, again. sigh, again. cry, again. missing you, again.

hello dee, it was like every morning you'll wake me up sending text or even call me when you got extra credits. yeah, it was a fresh start for my everyday. it seems awkward without your text or phone call this morning, the day seems gloomy. i have no strength to walk through the day without you in Malaysia. but, distance will never gonna separate us right? the more distance we are, the closer our heart will be. nothing would change the fact, is it? oh, and usually, we used to talk till late night, but its way different tonight. my phone didn't ring with your text, well i just wish for one text at least. but its okay. i just wish i can talk to you now, hearing your voice and laughter, i miss the moment you sang for me in bus during our trip to bukit tinggi last saturday and also, it was our monthsary. never thought that we'll go to this far. you are the sweetest man i've ever met, you see. i miss everything about you, boo. i love you.

p.s.

breathe to the deepest.

the old posts had already been deleted. let's just have a new start, shall we? hihi. cheers baby! forget the past and welcome to the surprising future, oh my, i hate surprise! daym. okay, let it be. move on syaa, move on. chin up, with broad chest, i'll just walk confidently to where the sun shines and will always careful of the dark that will attack anytime it wants.

new words.

hakuna matata means no worry just got it from the lion king *i'm lame*. pumba and timoon are adorable, i kinda envying their strong bonded friendship and it reminds me of them. great.

no worry, man!

but, no matter how carefully you choose your words, they'll always end up being twisted by others.

sigh.

please don't be in love with someone else.

please don't have somebody waiting on you.

girls, it musts be painful and a nightmare when someone you love, love somebody else and she is way better than you. it seems that better to let him go for the sake of his happiness though it's impossible to do so. it's confusing and really freaking me out. i sounded idiotic, shits.

oh by the way,

hoh.

i wish i could erase all the bad memories. all of them.

day first.

of a feeling of a miserable lady, me.


you are my sunshine, my only sunshine

you make me happy, when skies are gray

you'll never know dear, how much i love you

please don't take, my sunshine away

the other night dear, as i lay sleeping

i dreamed i held you, in my arms

when i awoke dear, i was mistaken

so i hung my head and cried :'(

i miss you ammar fiqri, so badly.