him.


  • we did nothing special this holiday. but its okay, i still love him.
  • we did nothing extraordinary to make each other happy. but yet, he is always the one to set curve on my lips then makes everything straight again.
  • we did nothing swag to persuade each other. just a little trust that had been sow since the very first day we were together.
  • we might argue a lot, but its always him i wanna get back together again, no one else.
  • there might be a lot of handsome guys out there. but no no no, its always been him, the most handsome guy in my heart.
  • there might be a lot of romantic guys out there. but there is always him to melt my heart and make me lovesick.
  • there might be a lot of gentlemen out there. but it has always been him to treat me so well though sometimes his words hurt.
  • there might be a lot of smart guys out there. but there is always him who is the smartest to grab my heart.


though some of them hate to see us together, takpelah. biarlah diorang. i am happy to cry and laugh with you. thank you for being with me all through these days. i love you and always will.

happy 26th monthsary, heartbeat :)

school.

i am proudly annoucing that i've finished my biology scrapbook. korang ada? hewhew.

daym.

the biggest regret is, kenapa lah aku tak siap kan awal awal? tu lah, buat kerja at eleventh hour lg. di saat saat genting mcm ni, mcm mcm pulak takde. well, i shouldn't procrastinate at first place kan. dah tau, buat jugak. anyways, mission succeeded. eventhough siap gaduh lagi dgn boypreng the night when i struggled to finish the scrapbook, but yay me! i managed to make it done. bye.

troll.

i am totally jealous with those pretty faces, bagi sikit kat aku boleh tak?

hidup kat rumah.

meleleh air mata kerana aku terlalu sensitif. yaaaa, aku sensitif, tanya kawan kawan.

hidup kat rumah, kalau mama ckp sikit, mesti aku menangis, biasa lah, aku ni jenis yg tak terima hakikat sikit. cengeng. hidup kat rumah, sgt banyak dugaan, takut nk buat salah, takuuuuuut sangat. hidup kat rumah, tak bebas mcm org lain, tapi takpelah, untuk kebaikan diri sendiri jugak mak ayah aku buat mcm tu kan, dia tak nak aku liar sgt. hidup kat rumah, tak sah kalau sehari tak gaduh dgn adik adik aku, tp takpelah, air yg dicincang takkan putus. hidup kat rumah, tak sah kalau tak berendam dgn air mata, back to the first point, banyak betul dugaan.

untunglah korang kalau ondeway balik rumah dlm kereta tu, mak ayah korang borak borak dgn korang, aku tak dapat mcm tu, parents aku tak bercakap pn dgn aku. kadang kadang aku rasa diorang benci aku, tp tak mungkinlah sbb semua parents sayang kt anak dia. meleleh jugak air mata aku kadang kadang dlm kereta bila kehadiran aku mcm tak disedari, tegur pn idok, apa pn idok. sedih kan? sedih jugak bila tengah happy happy then masuk kereta kena marah sbb turun lambat -.- meleleh lagi sekali air mata tu.

tapi biarlah mengalir air mata ni. air mata aku ni tak boleh compare pun dgn jerih perih mak ayah aku besarkan aku. aku ni dah lah degil, suka sgt ikut kepala sendiri, tak nak dengar cakap, rebellious. Ya Allah, teruknya aku ni kan? haih. bak tajuk essay BM, seorang ibu boleh menjaga 10 orang anak tetapi 10 orang anak belum tentu boleh menjaga seorang ibu. sedih pulak bila tengok tajuk tu. tu yg bersemangat nak tulis essay tu. hewhew.

aku nak jaga mak ayah aku sampai aku tua. aku tak nak jd macam sesetengah org yg abaikan mak ayah diorang tu. zalim namanya. then, bila aku ada anak nanti, aku harap, anak aku pn jaga aku baik baik. well, aku nk tunjuk contoh yg baik kt anak anak aku. insya Allah :)

penakut.

eceh, title mintak penyepak, mcm tajuk lagu yuna pulak, tp sebenarnya....
tak tak, that is not the main point.

sedih kan pasal berita kematian Yasmin tu, tak sedih sgt sebenarnya, takut :( siapa sangka, dia baru 17 tahun, tak sempat nak ambik SPM tahun ni, dah kena jemput ke rahmatullah. tu lah, ajal kalau dah sampai, bila-bila je boleh ambik. kalau ajal aku sekarang macam mana? aku tak ready. totally not. amal ibadah pun tak banyak mana, bkn tak banyak mana, mmg tak banyak pun! org kata, Allah ambik nyawa org yg baik awal awal. Yasmin tu baik, sbb tu Allah ambik dia kan.

bagaimana pula dgn aku? haih, tak sanggup nak imagine dah. api neraka tu, membara bara. apa nak jadi dgn aku ni. bila nak taubat, bila nak insaf. sekarang lah syaa! kawan kawan, marilah kita berubah, kita tak tau kita mati bila, mintak maaf kat mak ayah cepat cepat, nanti tak sempat. solat 5 waktu jgn tinggal, wajib tu! semoga kita semua ditempatkan di kalangan org beriman di akhirat kelak. Amiin.